Today is my 45th birthday. Typically I am not one that lets a birthday phase me. I have always felt blessed by my family and my friends, as I have aged I felt like I was doing so with greater grace for others, knowledge of God and an understanding of who He was in my…
Month: January 2020
“Praying for you”
“You might think that praying with someone in pain is a small and insignificant thing, but it is not. You’ll likely be able to ask God for help with a different level of faith than your hurting friend can muster. The boldness of your request and the confidence in your approach to the throne of…
On Being Refined
I saw this photo from an account I follow on IG and thought it was fitting. It seems as though in recent days I have been confronted with this message of being refined in suffering. On Sunday we were praying over another church friend who is going through her own battle and had surgery yesterday…
Psalm 23
In 2017 we got new flooring in our kitchen and our dining room. Before they put the new flooring down we went through and wrote a bunch of bible verses on the floor. We literally stand on God’s Word every day in a sense… A few weeks before Isaac died I took this fun quiz…
Different journey, same God
Different journey, same God. Ever faithful….always grateful. I am trying to work on a project, something I can’t share now, but if things go well, I can in April. I have been going through some of my old journal entries and came across this one from late September 2017….I was preparing for a surgery that…
Grasping for control
The other day I told Dominic that I want to repaint our bedroom. He responded “didn’t you just do that recently?” And he is right. It wasn’t that long ago that I changed things up a bit… I think this is a part of me grasping at something, anything that I can control. I can’t…
Life After…
Yesterday a woman stopped in the office to see us. She was from another company that we had worked with in the past and knew about what happened with Isaac. She wanted to personally stop and tell us how much she appreciated how open we were with what happened. Apparently in her extended family there…
It Starts with Me
It has been a long weekend. I guess getting through that 4 week mark was hard for me. This morning the thought of being at church, hearing the worship and seeing people, was overwhelming to me. I just couldn’t do it. Thankfully Dominic understood and took the kids on his own. I don’t feel like…
Thanks for being here…
This was never a website I wanted to create. Writing to process my thoughts and feelings has long been something I have done. I have been blogging since 2008, I started a family blog shortly after a miscarriage I had as a way of processing my grief. That led to years of writing and sharing…
4 Weeks
4 weeks ago it was about 9:30pm when Dominic answered a knock on our front door. 4 weeks ago that our lives changed forever. I wrote in my journal today that I know that life goes on but it feels like for me everything is measured by the next hard thing. Waiting for the death…