Jesus Knew

Jesus Knew

Yesterday was a bad day. I have had a string of them lately. A lot of stress at work, which I never want to complain about because I know how fortunate we are to be managing a successful business together…but it is hard, and this particular season has been a lot. I...

Bravery in Sharing Our Stories

A powerful post was featured on the TODAY show. Please click HERE and watch this moving interview with Harry Miller. My thoughts are below…. This is such an incredible video, so moving and powerful. Please watch it, share it, have your young people watch it….it...
All I Know to Do

All I Know to Do

Words from March 16, 2020: I found this yesterday when I was cleaning a closet in Elijah’s room. It was with a kindergarten book Isaac had put together for us years ago. I sobbed in that closet yesterday. I miss my son. The world seems to be falling apart around...
Run to the Father

Run to the Father

I have been listening to a song over and over again last night and this morning. We are going to try and lead it for worship this Sunday. Whenever I am tasked with leading a “new” song, the way I best prepare is to play that song on repeat so that I can memorize how...
Press On In Hope

Press On In Hope

A few weeks ago Dominic, Gabe and I went to Sioux Falls to attend the Augustana Vespers program with my parents and my sister and BIL. We didn’t anticipate how crowded it would be so when we arrived we had to split up to find seats. Our group of three ended up at the...
Bearing the Weight of Grief

Bearing the Weight of Grief

2 years ago and maybe one of the last pictures of all 4 of you together. Gosh I miss you loads Isaac. It feels like so much life keeps happening that I want to talk to you about. Gabe is looking at colleges and seriously considering School of Mines. Man, I wish you...
A Picture of God’s Promises

A Picture of God’s Promises

2 years ago we were on a family vacation in Wisconsin and Isaac was with us. That seems like a lifetime ago. But I remember it like it was yesterday too. We were supposed to go to the Black Hills, but he asked if we could go to this area instead. It ended up being a...
18 months

18 months

Isaac would have hated that I shared this picture, but I came across it when I was search for photos of Gabe to print. This was a postcard that Isaac received after he was accepted at NDSU. Ultimately he decided to attend elsewhere after he graduated, but this may...
When the Fog Lifts

When the Fog Lifts

I drove by the funeral home today and there is a beautiful, blooming (maybe crabapple) tree in the front yard. The funeral home is at the end of a street that I drive on every day. For months after Isaac died my breath would catch in my throat when I would see that...
Honoring God

Honoring God

This verse got me thinking this morning. What does it really mean for me to honor God, especially in suffering, in grief? In 16 months I have had a lot of questions, a lot of moments where I cried out to God asking Him “why”. But I have done so with the...