A year of you gone…

A year of you gone…

Just like so many of our “first” milestones in loss, today was one that I was not looking forward to. I think as you walk through grief, especially traumatic grief it is easy to wonder what you should do. Am I processing this the way I should? I have been...
Isaac’s First Heavenly Birthday

Isaac’s First Heavenly Birthday

On Wednesday November 18th we celebrated what would have been Isaac’s 24th birthday. Instead of texting him and bothering him for gift ideas, we planned a day with a few things that we felt as a family would best honor our boy. I can’t tell you the number...
Meet Hudson!

Meet Hudson!

Well we did something we thought we would never do this weekend. We added a puppy to our family. Introducing our tiniest member Hudson. He is all of 3 pounds and has already captured our hearts. He is an Aussilier, so he is a cross between a mini-Aussie and a King...
9 months…

9 months…

I feel like I should have some deeply profound words for today, but the reality is I just feel empty. It has been 9 months. 9 months ago at this time I was preparing to go to a performance of the Nutcracker with my girl and some friends. I sat in the auditorium...
Redemption and the Darkest Hour

Redemption and the Darkest Hour

I came across an old email that I sent Isaac in April of 2018. He was angry with us and I was trying to share my heart. I told him that even though he didn’t want to admit it, he and I were a lot alike. At the time I had been asked to write out and share our...
Life Lately

Life Lately

Today has been cloudy and drizzly. One of those dreary mornings where, if I was able, I would crawl back into bed and stay there. It has been a few weeks of hard decisions and quite honestly a lot of worry. School (for us) starts in basically 4 weeks. But because of...
Scar Mountain

Scar Mountain

In late June our family traveled to Colorado for a week away. For the longest time I struggled with the question of if we should even go or not. Over a year ago we found and paid for our rental home for this trip. At that time we could have never imagined that we...
Happy Father’s Day

Happy Father’s Day

Isaac’s graduation 2015 – Dominic put on his graduation gown for a funny picture. Dominic, It almost feels like a bit of a cruel joke that Father’s Day is falling on the 6 month anniversary of Isaac’s death. But I wanted to take a minute and...
For Better or Worse

For Better or Worse

Today is our 24th wedding anniversary. It is no secret that when we got married I was 4 months pregnant with Isaac. It was the anticipation of our son, his life and our commitment to raise him together, that initially brought Dominic and I together in marriage. We had...
The Reckless Love of God

The Reckless Love of God

I woke up this morning and instantly felt sad. It wasn’t time for me to get up so I tried to just pray for a time to see if I might be able to fall back asleep but sleep eluded me. It is in moments like these that I will pray the same thing. “Lord please...