The Reckless Love of God

The Reckless Love of God

I woke up this morning and instantly felt sad. It wasn’t time for me to get up so I tried to just pray for a time to see if I might be able to fall back asleep but sleep eluded me. It is in moments like these that I will pray the same thing. “Lord please...

To My Son After 5 Months…

Oh Isaac, This is never a letter a mom wants to write. One that her son will never see or read. Maybe it is silly me doing this, but man I miss you son. There are moments where it feels like a lifetime since we last spoke and then other moments that it still feels...

Even If, Even When

Last year right around this time we held a Tacos and Testimonies event at our church as a women’s event. Several of us shared pieces of our story. I spoke and shared of the transformation we had seen in our relationship with Isaac. How God had moved and restored...

Giving and Receiving Comfort

A few days ago we got a call that we weren’t expecting. A local mom that we knew had lost her son…he was just 2 years older than Isaac. It was unexpected and tragic and our hearts grieved with the family. We had been in touch with this sweet mama and...

These Two

These two. I love seeing their relationship grow. Having two so close together was a surprise, especially after years of infertility issues between my other boys. I remember Isaac being such a helper to me when I was pregnant with Karlena. Dominic was working in MN,...

2 Years Ago

2 years ago it was really hard. Isaac was in a dark dark place. As parents, we had made some choices that we knew at the time would save his life but as a result it made him very angry with us. It was such a hard, lonely path. I always said I would never want to see...

4 months…

4 months. The 21st will continue to be a hard day for me. While it “technically” has been 17+ weeks, today is the day that I struggle with the most on the calendar. Last year on this day, he was at our house. It was Easter. We made a last minute change to...

My brown eyed boy

Isaac’s kindergarten graduation My sweet brown eyed boy. This picture came up in my memories on FB today. 5 years ago we were a month away from his high school graduation. I was reminiscing about his kindergarten graduation. These days stuck at home trying to...

Do It Again Lord

This morning a “memory” came up in my Facebook feed. It was from March 28, 2019. I shared these words… “There are moments in our lives where all we can do is pray. I was telling my best friends and prayer partners that I can’t believe...

4 42

Since Isaac died I have had multiple days when I have woken up well before my alarm was set to go off. I would grab my phone off the nightstand to see what time it was, and if it was close enough to my normal time that it was worth getting out of bed.Every time I...