Even If, Even When

Last year right around this time we held a Tacos and Testimonies event at our church as a women’s event. Several of us shared pieces of our story. I spoke and shared of the transformation we had seen in our relationship with Isaac. How God had moved and restored...

Giving and Receiving Comfort

A few days ago we got a call that we weren’t expecting. A local mom that we knew had lost her son…he was just 2 years older than Isaac. It was unexpected and tragic and our hearts grieved with the family. We had been in touch with this sweet mama and...

These Two

These two. I love seeing their relationship grow. Having two so close together was a surprise, especially after years of infertility issues between my other boys. I remember Isaac being such a helper to me when I was pregnant with Karlena. Dominic was working in MN,...

2 Years Ago

2 years ago it was really hard. Isaac was in a dark dark place. As parents, we had made some choices that we knew at the time would save his life but as a result it made him very angry with us. It was such a hard, lonely path. I always said I would never want to see...

4 months…

4 months. The 21st will continue to be a hard day for me. While it “technically” has been 17+ weeks, today is the day that I struggle with the most on the calendar. Last year on this day, he was at our house. It was Easter. We made a last minute change to...

My brown eyed boy

Isaac’s kindergarten graduation My sweet brown eyed boy. This picture came up in my memories on FB today. 5 years ago we were a month away from his high school graduation. I was reminiscing about his kindergarten graduation. These days stuck at home trying to...

Do It Again Lord

This morning a “memory” came up in my Facebook feed. It was from March 28, 2019. I shared these words… “There are moments in our lives where all we can do is pray. I was telling my best friends and prayer partners that I can’t believe...

4 42

Since Isaac died I have had multiple days when I have woken up well before my alarm was set to go off. I would grab my phone off the nightstand to see what time it was, and if it was close enough to my normal time that it was worth getting out of bed.Every time I...

Three Months

I can’t believe it is has been three months. So much changed in our family that day that two officers came to our door to tell us the news. In a moment everything was different and in many ways I feel like we still live in a semi-protective fog, where the full...

Just one more day

It is gray and dreary here today and I feel it in my heart too. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of you son. I wish you could have known, really known the joy you brought to us. I guess I wish even the knowing of that could have made a...