I drove by the funeral home today and there is a beautiful, blooming (maybe crabapple) tree in the front yard. The funeral home is at the end of a street that I drive on every day. For months after Isaac died my breath would catch in my throat when I would see that place. One…
Category: Isaac
Honoring God
This verse got me thinking this morning. What does it really mean for me to honor God, especially in suffering, in grief? In 16 months I have had a lot of questions, a lot of moments where I cried out to God asking Him “why”. But I have done so with the understanding that ultimately…
Close to the Brokenhearted
In the early days after Isaac died I didn’t know what to pray. A friend gave me a small book filled with short devotions and a passage from Psalms. Each morning as my prayer I would write out the verses for the day. It was all I could do. If you don’t know how to…
Consider it Joy
It is a tough pill to swallow, the idea that we should count our trials as joy. Is that my first response? I remember studying that scripture along with the book of Job before Isaac died and asking IF I were faced with a trial like Job would I seriously have a response like his?…
Only You
I cleaned my house for hours yesterday. Yes my house was dirty but this was like washing down cabinets/walls kind of cleaning. Today after church and lunch I went outside and started raking up some of the dead leaves in our yard. I maybe should have offered to host family for Easter. I didn’t. We…
15 months
Today is 15 months since we lost Isaac. 456 days. It feels like a lifetime since I heard his voice. For me, the 21st has always been a harder day. It is a recognition of yet another month that has gone by. I don’t suppose I will always count in months, but for now I…
Our 2020 Christmas Letter
Every year I send out a pile of Christmas cards, but I know I don’t get one to everyone that is a friend online. So I try and share our Christmas letter in a blog post too. This post is coming a little after Christmas only because we spent a week away from MN in…
A year of you gone…
Just like so many of our “first” milestones in loss, today was one that I was not looking forward to. I think as you walk through grief, especially traumatic grief it is easy to wonder what you should do. Am I processing this the way I should? I have been told, and have read over…
Isaac’s First Heavenly Birthday
On Wednesday November 18th we celebrated what would have been Isaac’s 24th birthday. Instead of texting him and bothering him for gift ideas, we planned a day with a few things that we felt as a family would best honor our boy. I can’t tell you the number of people that have told me that…
Meet Hudson!
Well we did something we thought we would never do this weekend. We added a puppy to our family. Introducing our tiniest member Hudson. He is all of 3 pounds and has already captured our hearts. He is an Aussilier, so he is a cross between a mini-Aussie and a King Charles Cavalier. He looks…