These two. I love seeing their relationship grow. Having two so close together was a surprise, especially after years of infertility issues between my other boys. I remember Isaac being such a helper to me when I was pregnant with Karlena. Dominic was working in MN, and we were still living is SD and waiting…
Category: Loss
2 Years Ago
2 years ago it was really hard. Isaac was in a dark dark place. As parents, we had made some choices that we knew at the time would save his life but as a result it made him very angry with us. It was such a hard, lonely path. I always said I would never…
4 months…
4 months. The 21st will continue to be a hard day for me. While it “technically” has been 17+ weeks, today is the day that I struggle with the most on the calendar. Last year on this day, he was at our house. It was Easter. We made a last minute change to our summer…
My brown eyed boy
My sweet brown eyed boy. This picture came up in my memories on FB today. 5 years ago we were a month away from his high school graduation. I was reminiscing about his kindergarten graduation. These days stuck at home trying to help educate our kids is new and hard and nothing like we expected….
Do It Again Lord
This morning a “memory” came up in my Facebook feed. It was from March 28, 2019. I shared these words… “There are moments in our lives where all we can do is pray. I was telling my best friends and prayer partners that I can’t believe what we were having to pray for at this…
4 42
Since Isaac died I have had multiple days when I have woken up well before my alarm was set to go off. I would grab my phone off the nightstand to see what time it was, and if it was close enough to my normal time that it was worth getting out of bed. Every…
Three Months
I can’t believe it is has been three months. So much changed in our family that day that two officers came to our door to tell us the news. In a moment everything was different and in many ways I feel like we still live in a semi-protective fog, where the full weight of Isaac’s…
Just one more day
It is gray and dreary here today and I feel it in my heart too. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of you son. I wish you could have known, really known the joy you brought to us. I guess I wish even the knowing of that could have made…
Reaching for Heaven
It has been a hard few days. I don’t like to admit that I have been met with a period of doubts and fears. But it would be inauthentic of me to pretend that this season has been one of just absolute trust in God’s plan. Questions have come that have rattled my faith a…
10 weeks
10 weeks and it still seems like a bad dream. I wonder at what point I will stop marking my days by how much time has passed since Isaac died. People ask how we are doing and it is a hard question to answer. “Fine” seems to be the response that comes out most often….