Tonight it is New Year’s Eve. Typically we try and do something fun with the kids. Last year we went to our local Aldi that had just opened and let them each buy some fun snacks. We had meat and cheese and crackers, fun cookies and sparkling grape juice. We watched a movie and the…
Month: December 2019
Lord be near
Last night we watched the movie Flubber together as a family. We needed something light and funny to occupy our minds. Of course even that is a stark reminder of our reality….the lead actor in the movie being Robin Williams, who himself struggled as Isaac did, and took his own life a few years ago….
I Just Need to See Jesus
My friend Rachel took a few pictures at the funeral yesterday….and I am so glad she did. Now I wish there were more honestly, I have been writing so much as a way to process but also because I don’t want to forget. She snapped this shot of me during one of the songs. It so deeply…
Our new “normal”
Today was the first day that we didn’t have anything to “do.” The visitation and the funeral and done, thankfully the storms that have been swirling all around us stayed at bay and everyone was able to get home safely either last night or this morning. It is Sunday and while we would normally go…
Our Final Goodbyes
Well Isaac, we did it. Each step in this process has been so hard and brought about new waves of grief and tears. Today was no exception. Your dad said it best that there was only one person in the world like you. You were funny and quirky and made us laugh we are so…
Hard Moments
I woke up early today, unable to sleep and checked my emails. One email confirmed an automatic payroll transfer that I had scheduled for our business. I remembered it was Friday. Dominic and I had these plans booked to take a little trip just the 2 of us to Sedona AZ for 6 days. The…
When Christmas Eve Hurts
It is Christmas Eve. Usually we are headed out to the Christmas Eve service at our old church in Parker, SD. The church Isaac grew up in. The church Isaac was baptized in. Tonight we are getting ready for a meal with Dominic’s parents and will open some gifts and it all seems wrong. Every…
Blessed be the name of the Lord
I have been awake since 3:30. It is a strange reality, there are a few moments when you first wake that you don’t recognize where you are or remember what has happened…and then it all comes flooding back. My boy is at the funeral home down the street. In a few hours we will head…
The Early Moments After….
I guess this is what I am doing to process. I am going to be real here and share the good, bad and ugly. I have always processed through writing and so I am going to keep doing that now. We are fighting to praise God through this and will continue to do so. We…
The First 24 Hours
It is just under 24 hours since we heard the news and our lives changed forever. It feels like a lifetime. I have been awake for every hour – please pray I might be able to sleep tonight. Our kids are processing each in their own ways and I am trying to allow them space…